dissapointed....

woke up in a very good mood~ going for shopping,and for sure renew my liscen too,which expired more than 1 month..

But, everythings change rite after i get to know bout my result.. what the F*** T_T, my gpa drop until 2.++.. even my mom also starred at me when told her.. luckily din get scold by my parents@@.

tonite really need to put more pillow under my head n think wat does affecting me,until this kind of things happen.. sob sob

down~

y y y??? why everytime when i sms her also will end up floating? everytimes after 1 or 2 day,she only will told me she finish credit,or hp no battery. ish ish..

actually,i keep asking myself, izit she really finish credit,or actually she don really want to sms with me. i dont know the answer because i never ask her for it.

day by day,i started to get bored with her. everytimes i also keep on looking at my handphone,but sometimes not even a single reply then left my heart floating around. let's talk about last nite for example: she is out for yam cha. and suddenly she din reply me d. i dono izit she no credit,or busy,or somethings happen on her.. want to call her to confirm,but scare she busy and will think that im irritating. so~ end up im very very messy, doing nothing infront of computer,friend buzz me in messenger but i din reply them. is not the 1st time ady~

what should i do??? don sms her? don find her anymore? so that i wont worry for her anymore?

is time to call a stop?

is quite some times since i crush on her.. still remember the 1st time saw her in engin maths class during beta year,whc is before i on with my ex. she is so attractive. that time i juz sit infront of her,and wish to hav a conversation with her. but,my coward-ness stopping me from it. ><"

and,thank god. i got to know her from a meeting. and the feeling back into me. i been struggle for sometimes to really go talk and chat with her. sometimes,i really dissapointed with her attitude. how can she let her phone run out of credit? is kinda dangerous if she alone with a rm0 phone.. ish ish.

and,today,i accidently reach her blog. and,for sure, i go to read~
well,from some of the post,i get to know her ex is tortured.. wat happen? i dont know.. are she a playgirl? or just maybe i think too much? oh ya,by the way,thr's a boy who always appear in her blog.. that guy not bad and always take photo with her alone. so,i guess maybe is time for me to stop my crush on her for the 2nd time?? ><"


this is her name oh~.. i took the pic before i gift her. but im sure,no one know who is the person,other than the person itself. @@

爱情 是一种怪事
我开始全身不受控制
爱情 是一种本事
我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏 所有情歌的句子
我忘了说 最美的是你的名字
爱情 是一种怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情 是一种本事
我在你心里什么位子
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏 所有情歌的句子
我忘了说 最美的是你的名字
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏 所有情歌的句子
我忘了说 最美的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘是你的样子
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘是你的样子

being a 'lamp post' at sunway...

after my brother and his gf exam,they decided to go sunway. and,they forced me go along. aiks~ why everytime they going out also want to push me along ner??

is kind of sad when out with them,because im alone,no partner accompany me. haiz~

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we went for Ajisen Ramen once we reached there,because i just finish playing basketball and quite hungry.. at there,they non stop talked about a couple that sit next table to us. yeah, because the girl wear till damn sexy!

anyway,the course meal there all also at least rm10 or above. and i choosed the most cheapest meal..
and the taste,not so nice~ ><"

follow by is my brother and his gf meal,which they said yummy... ><"

and also,before we eat,there is something similar with 云吞 for us.. and it taste not bad oh~
and thats all what we eat and we head on to shopped after that. i walked in sunway alone for about 2-3 hour. and i saw lot lot of couple walking together while im alone. ish~

and in the mean time,i also saw a activity from brands company. which is guesting the number of brands inside a picture and also stack the box of the chicken essence..

and luckily they wish to going home earlier.. hehe.. at around 10pm ^@^v

怕输???

last time,i used to be a loser. no matter is in playing games, or studies,i also will be the last. but, no people is born to be a loser,right??

ya, i admit maybe im not smart,and i need more time to study compare to other people,and coz of this,i always stay up late at campus to revision. maybe some of the people will think that i 怕输. ya, i am!!!

is been such many years i be a loser,if is you,sure you also will try to change yourself,right?? i still remember,how do people look at me last time. criticize me that i cant study,not good in it,and some of them even lazy to care about me.

NOW,what i can tell is,im not as same as before. im not a loser,im a survival. the hardest the situation,the stronger i will be! and thank god, im now is in better situation than you all. im not going to turning back,im even not going to look back, because i will strive to the destination!!! may god bless me...

Nvr use GATSBY unless 'date with girl'...

recently, i bought a styling wax of Gatsby product from Watson.. and, the effect is very very very nice.. but,as we all know, there will be perfect things in this world. so do Gatsby wax.

before i use it,is very easy and fast for me to wash hair.. but since i use this product, omg!, i need wash at least 10 minutes to completely remove the wax 'stuff' from my hair. the wax is dammn damn hard to wash away compare to oth brand.. but for sure la,the hair the style using it is very nice. =)

mmm,here is some wax from Gatsby~

The one that i'm using now is 'Wild Shake'.. hehe,but my hair cannot shake laa,coz in the mean time,i also using another product from gatsby... whc is..

but i just use this combination of product for few times,and i stop using it already. lolx... i guess i will only use gatsby product when going out with girl,coz im very very very lazy to spend so much time wash hair... XD

im..... in CRISIS!!!

story started before CNY,which my father called to perodua service centre to order so call "side door protector". and, finally,it arrive this week and the service centre informed me. hoho...

and my nightmare begin!!! here is the pic of that accessory,



well,i not order for a piece and of course impossible people will let me order for a piece laa... XD
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and,guess hw much does it cost??
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don doubt it... really $193 for this set of accessory.. aiks~

feel like wan to watch movie with her.. but she wont online when at home,how i going to date her?? sms her? i guess i shouldn't baa.. cause yesterday only i told her: "chat with u next time when u online laa.."~

ish ish.. i wonder why i so stupid! can sms but asked people to chat in messenger.. haiz.

24th march

today... is still the same as before. starting my post with emo.. am i too rush??

well,actually this morning,i not that emo.. but after receive a few of her sms,and, suddenly,she just like dissappear.. aiks. by that time onward, im in emo. luckily,got a friend chat wit me now,and he told me something that is very meaningful.

at 1st,this is what he told me: "delete all her sms,don visit her friendster or facebook or watever,短痛不如长痛 ... u mus make ur heart immune to her lo..."

follow by:
"i got a friend adviced me something very nice to me last time : don't put any expectation on any other ppl to give happiness for u. u cannot rely on other ppl to give u happiness, u have to depend on ur own."---> so,this is what my friend told me... thanks for remind me, Tee.. :-)

anyway,act i just crush wit her only laa... not consider like baa.. haha

22nd march...

this morning,wake up with little 'in mood'.. till to smtg unusual happened.. keke.. before went to Midvalley with brother and his girlfriend,i planed to called her along. but, my 6th sense stop me from doing so. for what she go watching movie with me in holiday,somemore my brother is along.. aiks >
today watched 'internationale' at MV there.. the story line not bad,but...still consider boring for me.. my brother GF watched until aslept!!! haha.

after that,i went to friend house at cyberia to asked him dye hair for me.. wth,the color not nice,n somemore juz a bit bit only.. but nvr mind ba,mayb will re-dye my hair very soon..

planed to fetch friend to LCCT(beside KLIA) at 7pm,but coz of him DL an anime,we wait until nearly 8 o'clock only depart. while waiting my friend,i did not forget to sms her a while. lalala~~ quite happy to receive her reply even im the 1 who find her 1st.

during the time forth and back from LCCT,im starving and sleepy,mostly till to havent taken my diner baa.. and the consequences,my speed is increasing linearly on the way home.. lolX...

erm erm,i asking myself whole night:"is't a temporarily crush,or really is like?".. i cant figure out it anymore till to 2 times failure in relationship before.. =.=

holiday luu~~~

midterm break lo!!~ woke up at 11am,and din do much things at all.. aiks..


well,what i going to do for the rest of the week neh? studying for micro E exam? or just stick with my computer? really sien ler~ =.=??


today,she did not online at all.. well,i should feel ntg as usual. but,today is totally different feel anymore. din saw her on9,i feel uncomfortable. keep on looking at my phone,hoping she wil sms me, but i noe she not going to sms me..


whole night, i just keep on watching drama and serving net.. don have mood to chat with any1 also.. lolx.. >

what to do? haix...

crush~~

I hang up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away
Has it ever cross you mind
When were hangin, spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away...

valentines day celebration for me??

is been a long long time i din blogging d.. why today i will stop by on my page and write a blog ner? haha.. is very simple,coz i wan share wit u all maa my experience of celebrating valentines day..

thay day,i spent half of the day inside lib,which the lib air-cond does not turn on. ><".. but luckily not very hot laa.. hehe.. around 6.30pm,i start wait my friend at lib car park thr.. n this is the photo taken while waiting for eweyan~

at 6.30 sharp,eweyan reach car park d.. how bout others?? omg! they all sure playing computer,from 6.30 until 6.50 baru sampai.. some more asked me to wait them at cyberia roundabout.. Zzz...

on the way to puchong,jameson non stop comment bout my driving.. "pang,y drive so slow?? fast a bit laa!!!".. well,i'm a safety driver maa,of coz i din listen to him n speeding laa.. hehe.. something irritating happen after that.. eweyam,who sit beside me,start taking pic! omg. my head is inside of it..

after half an hour hearing them talk n laugh,finally,we arrive at our destination,whc is Waterlily Cafe.. this is their menu,which divided into few category.. but,that day many food not available.. haix..

i order a set which cost me $40.. what to do?? valentines day maa,sure expensive a bit laa.. hehe.. here is my seafood mixed grills,soup, n drinks.

after an hour plus,we all eat until full full~.. satisfy ler. and on the way toward car, loong curi curi snap a pic of us. huhu.

few more steps be4 'on board' into car,another photo of me n eweyan. but,this photo very dark,till to the unprofesional loong.. LOL..

i reached home at 10pm, and i sleep very early that nite.. and thats all my 21st valentines.. T_T

FUCK!!! i ter-scratch my car.. T_T

today,when i reverse my car out of the car porch,maybe till to mirror wet baa,i cnt c clearly, i just feel somethings like my car stuck.. when look carefully,only realize my car kiss my brother car.. omg! my 1st expression is shout..

after i park nicely beside the road,i look carefully and realize my car passenger right door is being 'knock' inside by my noob driving skill.. gosh! but my brother car i cant c any changes,maybe till to my brother car been kena many scratch before baa.

reached new home,i kena parents scold.. my mom already well known in our family with her super-duper emotional.. usually i din do anything wrong also she will say a lot till i beh tahan.. somemore this time my false,sure she will shoot me gao gao! T_T

tommorow start new sem ler,now i totally no mood at all. arrggg!!!

how do u feel bout me??

is around 3pm nw. last night i chatting wit a friend,but then after that the person juz dissapear without saying anythings.. i guess mayb is connection problem ba. after wait half hour,half hour,and another half hour,finally,i give up,and went to sleep at around 3am.. the worst things happened.. i dreamed a lot!! aRRR.. i wish i could have a nice sleep.. but dont know why i make all those stupid dream. at the end,i dont know what really i dreamed of.. ><""

woke up with little headache,i continue my stuff that i abandoned yesterday. but,my head start getting heavier and heavier. haix. mom cooked a lot of nice things as brunch,but i juz having with soup, coz i dont have any appetite. i went to school after that since at home i cant really concentrate study. glad to see that library is open.. ^^

maybe till to unwell,i cant really concentrate,then give my friend a question.
the question is: how to u feel about me? any negative part? list it out.. i dont mind and wont angry.. but,seems they scare i will angry with them. cant get any result..

i have a question for u all.. for wat u all so mind and reserve in telling me about my negative part?? just say it out man! i not going to angry u all. i just want to revise how am i.. thr's no perfect person in this world. i know,u know and every1 know bout that.. but i want to try my best to archieve it.. ><""

y so bad luck again???

2day before going for class,around 2pm,suddenly get a phone call from neighbour from another house.. only realize kena broke in.. haix.. when reach that house,the door and lock all gone.. not even have time to accompanied my mom,i have to rush back to putra permai to bath and attend the class.. 1st time late for class in this sem.. =.=.. haix. i wonder why the robber dowan go find job,rather go steal things.. sien nia!

My history...

is already 1am in the morning,next day i hav to stay whole day in school to preparing for my wednesday midterm 'digital logic'.. once i nearly fall asleep,i heard someone is talking in phone.. surely,is my father,still contacting his crew.. he already 52 years old,few more years will retired. but,he still work so hard to give me everythings good and new.. a new car,a nice room,and watever that i dont dare to ask from them..
when i am in my secondary school,i am a bad and naughty student even i am a science class student. not only that,i even been caught by police for skip class.. but,my father never give up on me.. he still giving me moral support and send me study at MMU..
well,even when i am in MMU,my thinking still not matured. did not pay attention in class,did not try my best in my study.. and finally,during 1st sem,i failed 2 subject and luckily i passed during supplementary.. during that sem,my gpa,is very 'geng'! 2.09.. 2.09 means all is C.. but my father not only din give up on me,even asked me every sem take less 1 subject according to the course structure..
only from that time onward,i realized that no matter how bad i am,they never give up,even giving me more moral support.. by time,i also start to hardworking and pay attention in class. luckily,from that time onward,my result increasing a lot..
is quite late ler,i think is time for me to go bed..:-) lastly,thanks dad for support me and never give up on me. i will never make u dissapointed anymore, coz i will 'never say no.. to success!'..

05dec2008

This is the 1st event that i ever enter since i joining mmu.. so call 'microsoft imagine cup'.. the main idea of this event is to promote and to let more college student know bout the tournament.. during this 3 days of event,'tuesday to thursday',we all non stop repeat the same things to every1 who pass by our booth.. thanks to a dealer who sponsored us a xbox,whc attract a lot of student to stop by n make our job easier in explanning to them.. during the period at the booth is not that easy as how i think. mainly till to the hot weather.. by the last day of our event,all commitee start relaxing,'including me~' :-p,coz we reached our target of our event.. this is the 1st ever event n from here i really learned a lot. 1 more things to share wit u all guys, there only supply us 1 shirt for 3 days n every night i hav to wash the shirt once reached home. somehow but dono how,i feel like my shirt is smelly even i washed dy.. hehe.. mayb i long time no wash clothes dy baa since i move bec live wit my family.. >.<